-Worrying does not take away tomorrow's troubles-
It takes away today's peace.
-Spirit of Life, Saratoga Springs, New York
Another breast cancer patient said I could borrow her saying about worry for my blog. She has it tacked to her signature line and loved it. I have learned many things over the last month, this is the most profound. We had a surprise in my pathology that has sent us searching for answers and a second opinion in NYC. We feel positive, we do not have all the answers yet, but it is time to finally move forward. I promise not to make this into a breast cancer blog, I am almost done with my 6 weeks of restrictions and antsy to get back to the new normal for us. I go each week to the plastic surgeon as I go through the process of reconstruction. I joke that I am the amazing expanding woman having the Tissue Expanders in. I still have a couple of surgeries to go and I will be thrilled to have this all behind me, but am grateful it can be done.
I have learned to deal with some of the stress with humor. It helps to deflect the somber tones of
what cancer brings to your family. (The hardest for me has been the tears in my husband's eyes or the unsmiling faces of my children when they ask questions. It is scary and they worry) I hope to help others and have started that. If I am forced to go through this, I can only hope my experience can help someone else through the shock and haze that clouds your life after the diagnosis. I hope someday this support will no longer be needed and we will have a cure.
I hope to start a new project for my plastic surgeon. We both have children in Art Colleges. I remarked to her that she was also an artist. She takes our shattered bodies and makes us whole again. I realized it was similar to crazy quilting. All these different pieces put together to make something beautiful.
So I begin AGAIN.... Grateful, blessed, and doing well.
Thank you all for your kind emails, comments, thoughts and prayers. They have sustained me through one of the roughest periods of my life. God Bless You All!