I will be relinquishing my Wonder Woman title for a while and dealing with the tangles cancer has brought to our lives.
I am off to surgery today surrounded by my loving family and friends. My dear sweet husband plans to stay with me tonight if the hospital will allow it. My oldest daughter will sit with him and keep him company during the surgery. Her mother-in-law and our good friend will stop in to drop lunch off to them. My other two children still have work and school. Not easy for them when they have to wait and wonder. With all the calls from family and friends I certainly know I am loved. This week has been the "emotional break down week" for me. I just had no control over the tears. I am a positive person. I look forward to being beyond this and starting recovery, but I hate the time cancer has robbed from us already. The months of reconstruction ahead casts a shadow across our youngest daughter's graduation from high school and taking her to college. I can not image those who have greater stages of cancer or years of treatments. My heart goes out to them and their families. After exhaustive research we know the surgical route is my best option. Do I like it? No-I frankly hated all the options! I was not given the option of-no decision is required here - we had to choose one. In the end it came down to this for me- I am blessed-I had a choice. So many women did not ever have the chance to choose.
On a more positive note -4 mastectomy recovery pillows made it out of my sewing room. The blue ones are for me and the two pink are already in the mail headed for a cancer resource center at a Rhode Island hospital. A request from another cancer patient. In the future I will share my pattern and directions. This was not my original idea, but I thought it is a good one. I was unable to find a pattern for these, so I created one. I have also heard of other people making rectangles for women as well. The heart helps support the arms after mastectomy and cushions the area lymph nodes have been removed. They also work great for reconstruction and keeping the seat belts of a car away from the sensitive area. Thinking of this future project helped me look beyond my tears to help someone else. It was only 2 pillows for now, but it is a positive step for recovery.I hope to work with volunteers in the future to create many more pillows for hospitals and cancer resource centers.
A humble gift made with our hands and given with our hearts.
Surgery brings some restrictions - I will need this next week to rebound a little before I can type again.
Please take care.